KANYE WEST, LEBRON, AND INVISIBLE CHESS: A Headline for Justice and Google

DATE: October 15, 2018
TIME: 11:50 a.m.
LOCATION: Ohio Concentration Camp

I probably should be in good spirits considering that my documentary, INVISIBLE CHESS, recently made it’s debut last month at the Greater Cleveland Urban Film Festival, but I’m actually a little upset because I’ve yet to hear from one person who watched the film besides my main supporters. I’ve come to the realization that most people don’t care about injustice inside the U.S. criminal justice system. People pretend to care when a TV camera is on. But when it’s off, nobody cares. People have become so desensitized that it has become acceptable for prisoners to be tortured by a racist U.S. criminal justice system.

INVISIBLE CHESS shows undeniable proof of me being tortured by Ohio’s criminal justice system, but, yet and still, as it appears, nobody gives a fuck. But what really has pissed me off in the past week is how everybody and their mama has spoken out against Kanye West’s recent meeting with President Trump to discuss criminal justice reform. Now, I definitely don’t agree with Kanye’s political views. But, damn, it can’t be denied that he’s on the front line in the interest of reforming the United States’ racist criminal justice system–that is, while most people are doing absolutely nothing!

In 2014, my situation of injustice received substantial publicity from a comment I made to the Ohio Parole Board about LeBron James. Unfortunately for me, however, not a soul contacted me about my situation. All of the so-called activist athletes and entertainers and organizations—they didn’t say a single word on my behalf. The WNBA’s Britney Griner, however, did tell TMZ that I should stay in prison. But, In her defense, she wasn’t told the whole story about my situation of injustice before being interviewed. But, even still, why would a Black superstar athlete use their voice to help me stay in prison?

At the time, I’d served nearly 21 consecutive years for robbery and assault, as a first-time prisoner. Afterwards, I tried numerous times to reach out to Griner. But, just like all of the other so-called righteous people in the U.S., she said fuck me. Like I said, though, when that TV camera is on it’s “Black Lives Matter! . . .Black Lives Matter!” But when that camera goes away, it’s fuck the struggle. The fact that I’m being subjected to being a modern-day slave–which the 13th Amendment clearly states is permitted in the U.S.—it means nothing. Absolutely, nothing.

Say whatever you want about Kanye West. Just know he’s getting a serious injustice addressed at the highest level, which just might lead to somebody being freed from an unjust term of incarceration.

In closing, I just want to say peace to Kanye West and all of the people who advocate for justice with action and not just words. If you’re a person of substance and believe that justice should be afforded to all, nothing should matter but justice.

Postscript: The photo attached to this post is a picture of my brother James (center). He is an Army Veteran in need of a kidney transplant. I don’t know if I’m a match to donate a kidney, but I’m willing to donate my brother a kidney if anyone is willing to help me arrange for this to happen. If anyone is interested in this matter, please contact me via JPay as soon as possible.

Just Do It Like Kaepernick: Free Jason Goudlock

Two years since first being interviewed for the forthcoming film documentary Invisible Chess: The Jason Goudlock Story, I’m pleased to announce that the feature-length film about my ongoing situation of injustice will be debuting at the Greater Cleveland Urban Film Festival on September 26,2018! (Website: www.InvisibleChess.com)!

Order tickets here:
Wednesday, September 26 @ 8:20pm
Thursday, September 27 @ 2:30pm

Thanks to the release of the film, the entire world is about to see how Ohio’s corrupt criminal justice system operates when it thinks nobody is watching. Elected officials, correction supervisors, and parole board members are all exposed for the deceitful frauds they are. In addition to this, the ridiculous enactment of Ohio’s 1996 new-law sentencing guidelines is highlighted in the film, which causes a sentencing disparity that adversely affects Ohio’s small minority class of “old-law” prisoners who committed their crimes before July 1,1996, such as myself. And the film shows how it hurts “new law” prisoners too.

I hope the release of Invisible Chess will lead to me being freed from my horrific over-incarceration. Being that criminal justice reform is currently a hot-topic kept in the media spotlight by the likes of ex-NFL athlete/activist Colin Kaepernick, NBA superstar LeBron James, filmmaker Ava DuVernay, and reality star Kim Kardashian, I feel the release of the documentary couldn’t have come at a better time. In fact, I hope all of the aforementioned activists will see and support Invisible Chess.

The only way the U.S. criminal justice system is ever going to be fixed is if people demand it. Think about this: Right now as I’m writing this blog post, somewhere in the world the U.S. is engaged in military combat in the name of “justice.” But how can the U.S. expect the rest of the world to view it as a just country, when it refuses time-after-time to afford justice to its own citizens? Right now, today, in the U.S. Constitution, it says people can be “enslaved” as the punishment for a crime! And in the third verse of the U.S. National Anthem, racist lyrics remain for anybody who wants to read them. (I wish someone would ask NFL Commissioner Roger Goodell about this seldom reported fact.) And I say all of this to say, that, if “bullshit justice” is allowed to exist in place of bona fide justice, the U.S. is always going to be fractured.

For starters, Ohio, the heartland state of the U.S. — has a chance, right now, to do the right thing and further the interests of justice by fixing its broken criminal justice system. And it isn’t hard to do, either. Like the famous Nike slogan says, all they have to do is “just do it.”

In addition to the announcement of the premier of Invisible Chess, I’m also pleased to announce to the world, that, after nearly 25 years of being incarcerated, I have met the most amazing and beautiful woman in the world: Jerniece McDade! Hopefully, you, and the state of Ohio, will help accelerate our getting more acquainted with one another in society. It would be greatly, greatly appreciated!

Postscript: Please support my campaign to be freed and share Invisible Chess with your social media platforms, as well as by making monetary contributions to my legal defense fund.

Invisible Chess World Premier – Press Release



Invisible Chess: The Jason Goudlock Story, a documentary by director Samuel Crow, will be premiering at the Greater Cleveland Urban Film Festival on September 26th and 27th.

Invisible Chess, a feature-length documentary, tells how an unjust Ohio law shapes the lives of Jason Goudlock, 4,000 other “old-law” prisoners, and 45,000 “new-law” prisoners. The story begins with Goudlock’s disrupted life in Cleveland, which led him to prison at the age of eighteen. Taken under the wing of older death row convicts, Jason became an activist and writer. But the struggles of being an old-law con have led him to spend years in solitary confinement, often voluntarily. Current and former prisoners and officials help explore the ramifications of Goudlock’s story, which is punctuated by six of his raps, performed in the film.

The Greater Cleveland Urban Film Festival, which celebrates the African cultural diaspora, will be showing Invisible Chess at 8:20 p.m. on Wednesday, September 26th and at 2:30 p.m. on Thursday, the 27th at the Shaker Square Cinema. Crow will be present at both screenings to answer questions, and interviews can be arranged by contacting info@invisiblechess.com.

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After a Long, Long Hiatus

July 2, 2018
Time: 9:52am
Location: Toledo Corr. Institution

After a long, long hiatus, the What’s Going On Blog is back!

For the past year, I have been dealing with extreme depression, and I just didn’t feel that anything significant was going on in my life that was worth writing about so, I shut the blog down for a while. Today, however, my spirits are in much better shape as the feature-length documentary, INVISIBLE CHESS, about my situation of injustice nears completion.

Invisible Chess Documentary Trailer

Watch the trailer on YouTube.

Finally, I’m on the verge of having my situation of injustice exposed to the world! People are about to get an intimate view of how Ohio’s corrupt and racist criminal justice system treats prisoners. The film shows in detail how I’ve been framed and assaulted by corrupt prison employees, as well as conspired against by crooked Parole Board officials. The audience is about to see why athletes all across the U.S. have been protesting and speaking out against the racist and massive incarcerating of poor people of color.

In other news, my overall situation has improved thanks to the humanitarian efforts of Tahiyrah Sparks of the Free Ohio Movement (FreeOhioMovement.org). Recently, she launched a T-shirt fundraiser to contribute to my freedom campaign. (See this website or Facebook/FreeJasonGoudlock for details), and she’s also heavily promoting my agenda on various social media platforms, as well as her weekly radio show, Sign O’The Times, on BlogTalkRadio.com(Tuesday to Friday,6:00 p.m. to 8:00 p.m.).

On a lighter note, the only bad thing in my life right now, besides still being in prison, is the breaking news that LeBron just parted ways with my CAVS and signed with the L.A Lakers. Damn. … I
guess I won’t be witnessing him win nothing for The Land. But, I’m still hoping one day, I can become involved with his charity organization in some form or fashion.

Before I conclude this post, I want to use my platform to give a shoutout to Ice Cube and his BIG3 professional basketball league! I don’t know if this is allowed by the BIG3, or not, but when I’m
released–I want to tryout for the league! One of my homeboys, who was my cellmate back in the day, Ray “The Rain man” Austin. After he got of prison, he fought boxer Wladimir Klitschko for the
heavyweight title (Klitschko won)! So, like Kevin Garnett yelled at the top of his lungs when he won an NBA championship for the Boston Celtics, “ANYTHING IS POSSIBLE!”

Signing off, live from incarceration nation,
JG of The Struggle

Ready to Leave the U.S.

After being physically assaulted on numerous occassions by crooked correctional officers over the course of my nearly 24 years of being imprisoned, and being repeatedly framed by racist prison administrations, I’ve come to the conclusion that the United States of America is not a country that I can live in as a Black man. With this being said, whenever I’m finally freed from Ohio’s modern-day slave trade (i.e. Ohio’s Department of Rehabilitation), as soon as I’m legally able to do so, I’m leaving the U.S. for good. I don’t even know what country I want to move to at this particular time. What I do know is that I’m definitely relocating out of the U.S. I can no longer live in this racist country that refuses to move away from racism, and I don’t want to live anywhere that refuses to treat non-White citizens as equals to that of Whites.

The racism that is ingrained in the U.S. is sickening. I mean, take for instance all of the backlash that has been heaped upon former NFL player Colin Kaepernick for his refusal to stand during the national anthem in protest of the mistreatment of Blacks by the U.S. criminal justice system. There shouldn’t be one iota of backlash against his stance, and here’s why:

The national anthem is composed of four (4) verses, but the first (1) verse is the only verse that’s recited at the beginning of sporting events. The third (3) verse, however, is composed of lyrics that are outright racist and offensive (e.g. “No refuge could save the hireling and slave…”). So, if the national anthem consists of lyrics that are unquestionably pro-slavery in nature, how can anyone claim to be offended because various Black athletes, such as the NFL’s Michael Bennett, refuse to stand during the singing of the anthem? There’s nothing offensive about a Black person not wanting to praise a racist national anthem. In my opinion, the only reason that people claim to be offended by the anthem protests is because they don’t want to acknowledge the fact that the U.S. — past and present — is a country that reeks of racism and is a country that is only “the land of the free” for some.

I don’t know if the U.S. will ever transcend its racist past and present? Until recently, I was optimistic that it could. Today, however, I am doubtful, and I no longer want to live in a country that is dead set on trying to camouflage its racist identity through the guise of “patriotism” and “law and order.” I refuse to conform to being a desensitized and ruthless patriotic robot-like citizen that needs to be told how to think by the string-pulling U.S. status quo. For this reason, I’m leaving this country — that is, as soon as I can free myself from the strangle-like hold of Ohio’s racist and corrupt criminal justice system.

Update on Hunger Strike and Lawsuit

October 8, 2017
Time: Early Afternoon
Location: SOCF Medical Ward

On October 2, 2017, a massive hunger strike was supposed to be held by dozens of Lucasville prisoners who are being housed in Restrictive Housing units and are being denied the right to receive and send JPay electronic mail. Unfortunately, as usual with oppressed Ohio prisoners who love to fight against one another and not against injustice, nearly all of them failed to participate in the protest that they all, weeks earlier, pledged to participate in. I am, however, still on the hunger strike and have been moved to the Medical Ward of the prison. I will not be on the strike much longer, though, because I am currently the only person still on the strike, which was never planned to be carried out by one person.

In regards to my civil lawsuit that I filed in 2013 against the six Mansfield pig-officers that assaulted me and framed me, it was my intention to post an update about the following a few weeks ago. When I got the news that I’d lost my appeal, my anger cause me to not even address the issue. In fact, today, I’m still upset that I even allowed myself to believe that I could attain justice through an Amerikkkan court. I lost sight of the fact that I live in a country whose criminal justice system once acquitted the LAPD pig-officers that brutally beat Rodney King, that is, despite the beating being secretly recorded by a video-camera-carrying pedestrian, who released the tape to the media.

Anyone with common sense, upon reading my Black Lives Matter essay, can see that all of the Mansfield pig-officers framed me and lied about everything. Their fabricated claim of having to initiate force against me, due to me allegedly “kicking my cell door open,” was proven to be an outright lie! In Amerikkka’s racist criminal justice system, obvious facts don’t mean anything. The U.S. Constitution might as well be toilet paper, as far as I’m concerned. None of its protections apply to me, nor were they ever intended to. For anyone who wants to pretend that the U.S. Constitution is some noble and esteemed document, just read the blatantly racist and inhumane words of its Thirteenth Amendment.

Although the crooked and racist Amerikkkan criminal justice system can get away with using complex and confusing legal jargon to dismiss the lawsuits of pro se litigants, such as myself, it can’t get away with trying to fool society into believing that it’s a just system. Just as the video footage of Rodney King being beaten by the LAPD showed the world that Amerikkka’s criminal justice system is racist and corrupt as the day is long, so will the forthcoming film documentary about my situation of injustice do the same. I’m telling you, I can’t wait!

Speaking of my documentary, the film is almost complete. I’m not exactly sure what the next step will be once it is? Aside from everything that the filmmaker and producer are going to be doing when it comes time to promote the film, I’m going to be doing everything that I can to assist in the promoting of the film — that is, reaching out to filmmakers of social justice documentaries (e.g. Ava DuVernay), bloggers, journalists, the Black Lives Matter movement, TV and radio sports shows (because of the LeBron James and Brittney Griner tie-ins to my 2014 Parole Board hearing), activist organizations, influential rappers (e.g. Jay Z, Nas, Killer Mike, The Game, etc.), and influential athletes (e.g. Colin Kaepernick, LeBron and D.Wade, Carmelo Anthony, etc.). With this being said, though, I’d like to ask that anyone who is interested in assisting me with spreading the word about the forthcoming documentary to please contact me via regular U.S. mail, so that we can work together towards promoting the film in the interest of attaining justice for not just myself, but for all Ohio old-law prisoners who have been wronged (a video trailer for the film will be released soon). By myself, without question, I am a strong and determined person. With your assistance, together, we can become a powerful and unstoppable force that ushers in true justice!

I conclude this posting in solidarity with all of the hungry people living throughout the world. One day, somewhere, I’m going to provide people with food who are hungry. I know I’m on a hunger strike, but being hungry is not a good feeling at all!

Struggling until we don’t have to,

Jason Goudlock,
live from incarceration-nation

Slavery is Alive in Southern Ohio Correctional Facility

September 18, 2017
Time: Late Evening
Location: Extended Restricted Housing, S.O.C.F, Lucasville, Ohio

Unfortunately, I haven’t been doing too much of anything lately, except sitting in my cell, fuming, full of rage. Since the end of June of this year, I’ve written over a dozen complaints to try to be given my legal and personal property that I’ve been denied since arriving at this concentration camp. The prison’s racist administration refuses to give it to me. I’ve caught numerous prison employees telling lies about why I can’t have my property, and I’ve presented the evidence to the prison’s Institution Inspector. It’s virtually impossible for me to get any justice, though, because the very people who are responsible for watching out for corruption — they’re corrupt themselves!

All of these people simply go through the motions to make it appear like they’re doing their job with integrity. In reality, however, they’re all either directly or indirectly contributing to the cruel mistreatment of prisoners. Everyday, SOCF prisoners are being beaten in handcuffs, getting framed, being denied mail and reading material, and SOCF’s crooked administration condones it.

While slavery is most definitely alive in SOCF, as it appears, so is prisoner resistance. On Monday, October 2, 2017, the word going around is that hundreds of Security Level 4b prisoners are staging a massive hunger strike to protest not being allowed to receive and send JPay emails since May of 2017. 4b prisoners across the state (including Toledo Correctional Institution and Ohio State Penitentiary), with the exception of 4b prisoners at SOCF, are allowed to receive and send emails.

The tyrants of SOCF, however, refuse to aid the lessening of hardships of their 4b prisoners. What’s crazy about all of this is that SOCF and JPay continue to rake in tens of thousands of dollars off the emails that the supporters of 4b prisoners are being charged to send! If anybody else were to solicit and accept money to provide a service that they knew wasn’t going to be provided, they would be sent to prison! So, how is it that SOCF and JPay are being allowed to get away with outright embezzlement money from the supporters of prisoners? I mean, it’s not like they’re Wells Fargo, right?

Come Monday, October 2, 2017, I hope that SOCF and JPay are held accountable for their criminal actions! If they aren’t, for whatever reason, once my forthcoming documentary is released and hundreds of people, if not thousands, are paying attention to it, I’ll do a follow up post about the issue and post it here. One way or another, though the profiteers are going to be held accountable!

SOCF, in particular, thinks that their corrupt and cruel practices of mistreating prisoners will never be halted or exposed to the general public, but they’re wrong! In due time, true justice is going to prevail over evil.

On that note, I’m going to conclude this post, but not my fight for justice and freedom … Thus, the struggle continues!

Injustice, Book Trailer, and Documentary

August 20, 2017
Time: Late Morning
Location: Special Housing Unit, S.O.C.F, Lucasville, Ohio

After being transferred to Warren Correctional Institution at the end of 2016, where unfortunately, I was housed in the prison’s general population with a new-law kleptomaniac prisoner (who has six prison numbers), I’ve been transferred from WCI back to Southern Ohio Correctional Facility in Lucasville where I’m now being housed in a single-man cell inside of a so-called special housing unit.

The only good thing about my current situation is that I no longer have to be caged in a cell with another person. Besides this, though, I’m still living in a crazy environment. Shortly after arriving at SOCF on June 20, 2017, several inmates conspired to try to throw bodily waste on me because I spoke up for another prisoner who had bodily waste thrown on him by another prisoner … who was given the green light to do it by two corrupt officers. As a result, I ended up having to go on suicide watch to get out of the situation, and to try to get my personal property that I was never given upon arriving at SOCF.

After being on suicide watch for six days, the Mental Health department took me off of watch and agreed to help me try to get my property. When I got off of suicide watch and returned to a new cellblock, I quickly discovered that most of the property I had in my cell before I went on watch was missing. All of my hygienic items, my radio, magazines, my novel that I wrote, and my Mike Tyson book, Undisputed Truth, was gone!

In addition to all of the above madness, until a couple of days ago, for the past few weeks I have been unable to communicate with people due to not having any stamped envelopes due to somebody not turning in my commissary slip. If SOCF hadn’t recently and arbitrarily stopped all Level 4B prisoners from sending and receiving JPay emails, I would’ve been alright. But, SOCF — a super-racist prison — they don’t want inmates to have any support from society, which is kind of crazy considering that prisons make millions of dollars off of prisoners that are provided with financial support by, mainly, supporters who live in society. In the interest of making money, you would think that SOCF would want inmates to be able to easily communicate with the outside world, bot not SOCF. They’d rather just see people miserable.

Speaking of the company JPay, I wonder if they know if Level 4B inmates in SOCF aren’t being given their JPay emails that people in society are paying the company to deliver? I actually like the service that JPay provides to prisoners, although they could bring down the prices on some of their services. But, if JPay is accepting money from people to have emails sent to inmates that aren’t being given their emails, then, something has to be done about this. As the JPay records will show, all Level 4B, 5A, and 5B inmates at other prisons besides SOCF — they all receive and send JPay emails on a daily basis. Therefore, SOCF inmates on the same security status should be allowed to do the same.

The Best for Last

The documentary being produced about my situation of injustice, recently re-titled as “Invisible Chess Match: The Jason Goudlock Story,” is nearing completion (a trailer for the film will be released soon). In just a matter of a few months, or less, the world will be able to learn about the corruption that goes on in Ohio’s criminal justice system. Many people have known for years that I’ve been getting railroaded by Ohio’s crooked system. Instead of them putting a stop to it, they’ve just ignored it and swept it under a rug of deceit. Being that Ohio is a state where police are allowed to get away with killing unarmed citizens (e.g. Tamir Rice and Sam DuBose), it makes sense why Ohio’s powers-that-be don’t give a damn about me. Make no mistake about it, they’re going to have to explain to the viewing audience of the film why they have allowed me to be subjected to the injustice that I’ve been, and continue to be, subjected to.

In addition to the good news about the progress of the documentary, a trailer for my novel, “Brother of the Struggle”, was recently made available. With this being said, I ask that you please support my book and quest for freedom by posting and circulating the book trailer on your social media platform(s), et cetera. Although I’m unable to view the book trailer, I’ve been told that the trailer is very good and I’d love to hear some of your comments about it.

Before I conclude this posting, I would like to remind you that if you wish to contact me, you can only contact me via snail-mail, otherwise I will not be given your correspondence. Additionally, I would also like to ask you to help me get through this difficult time by sending me reading materials that are posted on my website’s Book Wish List (all books must be paperback and CANNOT come from Amazon per SOCF’s crazy-ass policy). Your show of support is greatly appreciated!

Thank you for reading this posting, and until my next update, I shall remain in the struggle.

Random Questions From a Prisoner in Solitary Confinement

1. Why does the United States embrace people and corporations that willingly and knowingly profited from Adolph Hitler’s killing of six million Jews during World War II? General Motors, Ford Motor Company, General Electric, Standard Oil (now Exxon) all supported Hitler’s war machine by providing industrial support to Germany in exchange for millions of dollars. And they did this while also providing industrial support to the United States. How is it that the United States still supports these corporations while pledging support for Israel? I’ve never owned a car, but when I get out and buy my first vehicle, it’s probably going to be a Tesla! General Motors and Ford have way too much blood on their hands to get any of my money.

2. Why does the United States support Israel’s expanding, unjust occupation of Palestinian land? Isn’t it hypocritical to support the sovereignty of the more recently established country of Israel and not support the sovereignty of Palestine, which was established earlier? If the United States is willing to denounce communist Russia for taking the Ukrainian territory of Crimea, then why accept the seizure of Palestinian land? Such blatant acts of hypocrisy do nothing but create more division in the world.

3. Why does the United States cast its founding fathers as noble proponents of freedom when they were profiteers of oppression? Criticizing the legacies of the founding fathers is frowned upon, but is it sane to glorify proponents of slavery, murder, and the cultural destruction of Native Americans? If Adolph Hitler were a founding father of Germany, would Germans glorify and commemorate Hitler by placing his face on its currency? Or name institutions of higher education after him? What sane person would willingly attend Adolph Hitler University or The College of the Third Reich? Why, then, are Americans expected to ignore the character of their founding fathers? Do they have to be granted permission to acknowledge the truth about their founding?

4. Why do people in the United States allow adolescents to be recruited by the military to go and fight and kill and die in wars fought against impoverished countries and on behalf of billion-dollar corporations? Why can adult recruiters be allowed to convince an adolescent to consider becoming a soldier with a license to kill? Without an unending conveyor belt of impressionable adolescents to be manipulated, the dark agenda of war profiteering could not be achieved.

5. Why didn’t Barack Obama use his presidency to reform or dismantle the United States’ unjust, racist criminal justice system? In 2010 then-President Barack Obama was praised for decreasing the crack cocaine/powder cocaine sentencing disparity from a ratio of 100-to-one to a ratio of 18-to-one. I am no Harvard scholar like Obama, but how can it ever be considered just for a person convicted of possessing crack cocaine (often Blacks) to be sentenced EIGHTEEN times more severely than a person convicted of possessing powder cocaine (often Whites)? Beyond signing into law this unjust and wildly misnamed sentencing bill, “The Fair Sentencing Act,” Obama did nothing to reform or dismantle the nation’s criminal justice system. How did this happen? During his presidential campaigns in 2008 and 2012, Obama used the color of his skin to win support from African Americans, but after each election we were hung out to dry, just as Cornel West was uninvited to the 2009 Inauguration in spite of being a key grass roots organizer for Obama’s campaign. Martin Luther King must have been rolling his grave.

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Longing for Companionship With a Woman Like Cheryl

Over a decade ago, while incarcerated at the Ohio State Penitentiary in Youngstown (Ohio’s “Supermax”), I watched the film Antwone Fisher. This inspirational biopic about Cleveland native Antwone Fisher, starring Denzel Washington, Joy Bryant, and Derrick Luke as Fisher, instantly became my all-time favorite movie. I was awed by the story of Fisher’s relentless determination to overcome the harrowing circumstances facing a child raised in an abusive foster home. As a native of Cleveland myself, and as a resident of the same boys’ reform school in Pennsylvania where Fisher was sent, I felt as if I was watching a movie about my own life.

Many parts of Antwone Fisher moved me, but my favorites were those scenes in which Fisher courted the woman he loved–Cheryl, played by Joy Bryant. If a person’s heart could smile, mine would have done it when Fisher recognized in the middle of a date with Cheryl some words he first heard when he was practicing for their date. His male mentor had prepared him well by bravely playing the role of Cheryl to help Fisher overcome his inexperience with women!

As a 42-year-old man, incarcerated for nearly 24 consecutive years, I long to know an understanding and supportive woman like Cheryl in Antwone Fisher. Although Ohio’s corrupt parole board won’t free me from my excessive imprisonment, if I were to become acquainted with a woman like Cheryl, I would be freed from the imprisonment of my loneliness, just as Fisher was when he met Cheryl.

As each day passes, my enduring pursuit of companionship grows stronger and stronger. The pain of loneliness fuels my willpower and drives me to keep striving for what I seek from life. It drives me to work on my writing projects in the early morning, even when I have a headache and long to rest. It drives me to assail the darkness of injustice until the light of justice shines through. And it drives me to remain patient until the woman of my dreams comes into my life, as I know she will in due time. And when she does, if I’m lucky, she might even have the same beautiful dimples as Cheryl.

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